I don’t know if I have the right to be..

I don’t know if I have the right to be.. but I am…

I am and I will be quite there…

There on the hill top…

On the hill top gazing..

Gazing at and through the sky…

Through the sky I see HIM,

And I wonder why..

I wonder why..

I wonder why do i..

Do I see HIM stand by…

See HIM stand by everyone along the way…

Along the way of cureing , healing, wounding, fighting, chasing, pampering, loving, bothering,accepting,denying..

Im dying..

Im dying with my thoughts that are now dim..

Now dimmed to the dark..

To the dark I lead..

I lead to the unknown path..

Unknown path of the unknown world ..

Unknown world of the unknown time..

Unknown time of the unknown ages…

I GAZE…

I ponder..

And I wonder…

I wonder how..

I wonder how did I start to write this..

This sh...it . it .it .it. it

Its just because of the way you look into my eyes....

The way your eyes look into mine,
don't know how to describe..

It's as if they know what they are searching for,
as if you know what they are hiding from,
as if they know where my strength lies,
and catches hold of it and i burst into loud cries.

i gather all the weakness,
to give it a better place,
so that you don't find it anytime next.

But its you.....
its just you...
You know the secret places of hiding my secrets
and bring out all the wet, damp and soaked drawers,
to expose it to the hot, dry sun rays.

But then they just get wet again...
Its just because of the way you look into my eyes....

You know that you worth all this....

I don't want to reduce your sorrow,
I don't want to heal your wounds,
rather i would capture your tears,
and keep them in my treasures,
so that when you look back on your happiness,
you know that you worth all of this....

बदनसीबी...

हम किसी और के हो जायें ये मुमकिन नहीं,
हम आपके साथ नहीं ये आपका नसीब नहीं।
खुदा ने मजाक बनाया हमारी बदनसीबी का,
उनकी बदनसीबी को हमारे नसीब में लिख दिया...

अपनी चीज़ बांटने में झिजक होती है...

अपनी चीज़ बांटने में झिजक होती है,
शुरुवात तो तुम्हीसे होती है,
ना जाने तुम भी हमारे हो भी के नहीं,
ये दिल और दराज कब के पराये हो चुके हैं।

They came to my cemetery....

They came to my cemetery,
and offered one stone each,
now i realize...
that there were so many stones,
that i could have built a new home with....

One only feels carefree.........

One only feels carefree,
when one knows that there is someone to care.

One only feels helpless,
when one knows there is someone to help.

One only feels like crying,
when one knows there is someone to console.

I feel lonely,
just coz i know there is also someone feeling lonely without me......

always be there for me!!

Its so hard to make someone love you,
no matter how much you do,
its just the way someone looks at you.

If you laugh people think you are too carefree,
and if you cry people say you haven't understood life's chemistry.

It needs a HEART and guts,
to take a person the way he is.
And not only to take,
but to live with the fact
that that's the way to love someone without suspect.

And i do...
i do take you from my heart,
no matter if you are near or afar.

I hope i make a space somewhere in your comfort zone,
where chances of misunderstanding are less prone.

I wanna be the ultimate of all the beings,
to whom you share all your feelings.

I don't want you to say that you love me,
just say that you take me the way i am,
and that you'll always be there for me.

Optimist!!!!

Next time anything good comes my way,
i know its gonna go away,
so i am not gonna believe it anyway....

Strange! how life serves the worst experiences in the the best of its packs,
so don't think,
don't expect,
just take Life the way it is,
that's what they call it to be an optimist...

Go away!!

Go away....
i don't want you here,
why is this thought humming like a bee around my ear,
have i not made all the things to myself fairly clear??

Hey, but do i really want to be lonely??
or its just my inner anger??

Actually that is the only thing in life that i badly fear,
and the only thought to which i still anchor....

One shouldn't be much educated!!

One shouldn't be much educated about life,
coz then you know more right ways to live life,
and the more wrong you see,
the more you struggle to live the right way.....

The skin of tears

The skin of tears is the same,
just the emotions that they roll down with are different.

I cry for every stretched string,
he cries for nothing...

thin line between love and hate

They say there's a thin line between love and hate,
i hope i am not fooled about the other side....
will anyone come looking for me???
and even if he does,
will i be there on the place he wants me to be......

The happiness that i get when i listen to you....

The happiness that i get when i listen to you...
is like.......
when i sit for a reason in the window,
to listen to the rain and to hear the wind blow....

It was like my mother's presence,
spreads around God's fragrance.
like i surrender in front of HIM without even thinking for an instance.

Your being there was so without any courtesy,
and my heart was happy begging for mercy.

It is in my mind like a reflection of mirror which i would never dare to hold,
but would see even when my eyes are closed.

Its like you jump in the water too cold,
and come out warm and all dressed in gold.

It is like coming out of one dream and getting into another,
without letting the mind even bother.

water!

These days i am afraid of water,
i am afraid of those big waves in the sea,
who know that they will drown me.

This hole in my heart,
this emptiness will drown me one day,
all down the way.

sitting by the river bank !!

Sitting all alone on the river bank,
has brought my soul back.
The way the birds and the boats are not afraid of being alone,
i too wanna see myself to that level grown.

Wake up, grow up is the call of the nature,
its high time you get out of love and nurture.
Be bold,
fight the cold and face the heart break,
coz it has to be the way HE has told.

You can't change the present but your future.
You can change your mind but not your heart.
You can change your skin but not your blood.

Look i need sometime to change my routine,
the walk of the brain,
the talk of the mind.

Do hell with love,
do hell with the saying that love is blind.
The only thing i know,
is and to your knowing.
Don't even trust GOD,
coz things that shouldn't have happened,
have to be said that had happened for good.

LONELY...

The days aren't lonely ,
lonely is me,
lonely is my half heart,
lonely is my half soul,
lonely is the rest of my life,
lonely is the word 'LONELY' without 'ness'

i guess i rightfully deserve it,
to see you happy with someone else,
and make me realize,
that there is someone who can take my place.

kill me, choke me, bury me live,
and then,
at least then,
let me have a fake heart which i will never have to give.

days aren't lonely,
they at least have tomorrow to know.

lonely is this poem,
without you to read it,
lonely is the truth,
unless you say it.....
Yes you are lonely ...
lonely without me...absolutely lonely......